Sunday, March 17, 2013

The reality of reality

A local train on the harbour line at 0015 hours is seldom expected to throw up rather surprising and eventful happenings.

More often than not, the train is filled with people with tired, droopy eyes. While some lean against the window and doze off, most others take the liberty of being in an empty train and treat the long seats as beds.

There is hardly going to be a chance that one would end up having an interesting conversation at this hour of the day (night?). Well, somethings are just meant to happen out of the ordinary.

The most common ice-breaker in a local train conversation is 'Boss, Kaunsa stop hai yeh?' Followed by questions on how far a particular stop would be.

In that sense, the start was quite normal. Across me, sat 3 young boys with 2 of them reading into a blue-covered pocked-sized book with transcripts in hindi.

I was intrigued by what they were reading but too exhausted to start a conversation and ask them about it. I continued staring out of the window, into the darkness when one of the boys asked me the standard question.

Kurla, was my response to which he replied asking when we'd reach a certain station. I spent the next 2 minutes explaining how the train wouldn't go through that particular station and gave them an alternative route to that place (yes, I gave directions! Accurate directions).

The conversation reached a point when I asked them, '' Aapko kahaan jaana hai?" It was the question that opened me upto something that I thought was astonishing and got me thinking.

My latest memory of one of the million reality shows on TV is not an amusing one. My mom's ability to follow each of those farcical shows amazed and annoyed me at the same time. She justified saying true talent was on display while I went on rambling about the fake melodrama that is induced to win the never-ending war of TRPs.

Even if I wasn't entirely wrong at rubbishing those shows, yesterday's conversation with those boys led me to put my extreme views aside and see a point in all of it.

As the conversation went on, I learnt that they were four school-going kids who were on their way to an audition for an upcoming dance reality show on star plus. Auditions at half past midnight? Fishy isnt it? Even I thought so before one of them told me that they were heading to the venue right now so that they get an opportunity to give an audition in the morning at 11. I was shocked at first listening to what these boys were about to do and was further appalled by the manner in which he made it sound so normal and went back to reading his little book. I asked them their names and what they were reading, "Yeh? Bible" was the prompt reply.

I was fascinated by their quest and probed further into their intent and preparation, only to be further amazed and find out that they were dance teachers themselves to younger kids in their locality.

I asked them if they attended such auditions on a regular basis and out came another response that left me with a smile. "Kal bhi tha par humara Maths exam tha. 10th class boards chal raha hai na?"

I smiled and questioned back like a probing old uncle (yes, age is unfortunately catching up) "kal exam nahi hai?" For which he said that they had a long break before the next exam.

It was heartening to see a bunch of school kids take such an effort to showcase their talent. No one does such things in Hyderabad (unfortunate but true).

I showed them where they could take a taxi from and wished them good luck before parting ways.

I still may not swear by any of those shows like my mom would, but looking purely at their intent I really wish they get a fare crack at it.

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

The Candy floss theory

Its been over a year since I wrote anything here. A lot has happened in this period. I successfully completed my post-graduation from one of the most beautiful campuses ever to grace the face of the earth, I spent 9 months doing content for a website by an event company, I interviewed ADAM GILCHRIST (yes, read that again!) and eventually quit my job, only to become a cricket journalist. From the picturesque valleys of Lavale (Look it up), I've made my way to the cruel world of Mumbai.

I'm doing fine, by the way. Not your usual naive villager shown in the movies, who flocks to Mumbai and is robbed the moment he steps onto the busy platform. The movies do portray Mumbai as it is though. The way people cling onto the trains day in and day out, travelling miles for work is quite inspiring sometimes.

The much-talked about spirit that various film-makers try to capture through a myriad concepts cannot be captured. It's too vast, its too widespread to be put into a 70 mm frame lasting for 3 hours. It would be injustice to the aspects that the film-maker is bound to ignore, for there are far too many things that define this city of dreams.

I've survived, in conditions good and bad, the Mumbai life for over a year now. I've learned to live in the city that teaches you the most important life lessons that none of the moral science classes could ever have.

So, that's a quick recap on what's been happening in my life since I last used my blog. A lot of moments, most of them I will cherish for a lifetime should have been recorded here. Anyway, moving on from the city of dreams to the city of MY dreams, Hyderabad, the real reason for this post.

I returned from a four-day trip home and I'm yet to get over it. four days are not a lot I know but its just the quality time spent in what I believe to be the best city in this country that matters the most.

At 11 pm last night, I was in my train to Bombay ( I refuse to call it Mumbai). As the train began to move, the last four days flashed in front of my eyes, telling me that an impulse decision of jumping off the train before it gains speed might be an enterprising one. Unfortunately, I was boring enough to decide against it.

I just sat back and let the thoughts pour in. I sat there thinking how the four days just went by in a flash. It's a lot like the experience of eating candy floss. You enjoy your first dig into the fluffy pink substance and just when you start to enjoy it and dig deeper, its finished. Just like that.

Sigh.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Let's Go...

Let's go...

One last time to salvage some pride...
One last time to beat the demons inside...
One last time to try and just nudge the tide..
One last time before the homeward ride..

Let's go...



Tuesday, September 13, 2011

No Room for Stereotype...

Not every war has a deserving winner...
Sometimes you pay a lot more than a sinner...
Not every villian is eventually killed....
Not every vacancy is always filled...

Responsibility doesn't always come along with power...
Books are often only as good as their cover...
Not every story ends on a happy note...
There could be a thug in that black coat...

Not every Goliath is easy to beat...
Not all clumsy men have two left feet...
Sometimes you don't even get your opportunity cost...
Losing battles are generally lost...

Not every superhero can afford to fly...
Not every rule has something to imply...
Not all rivalries are about taking a swipe...
There really is no room for stereotype...

Saturday, August 27, 2011

In the Air...

Ah What a lovely morning this! Bright and Sunny, a perfect day for some good,competitive cricket. Before I could realize, I was on my way to what they call the Mecca of Cricket, The Lords'. I sat motionless in the stands and watched bodies on the, sweating it out in the name of Pre-match warm up. I didn't need anything of that sort.I was indeed, Perfect. I somehow enjoyed the power that came along with this unmatched perfection.

I waited for them to finish their practice before I could hit the field. I began to gather my thoughts. In exactly 6 minutes, I would be in the middle, in the thick of action. As I proceeded towards the pitch, a lot of arbit thoughts began to hit my head. I began to recall what a lot of 'pundits' of the game have said about me in the past. I vividly recall a few of them claiming that I was very important and on certain days I could be a major factor for the outcome of the game. They say I tend to be equally important for both the teams,and they've said it on camera ( I have proof!).

Sounds like a lot of pressure,doesn't it?
Well not really, Its just a matter of going out there, believing in yourself, taking that big leap and sucking up to gravity and falling back. But its those few seconds in the air, that matter the most. It's the thrill that attracts me to this game and that's why I've been here, doing this, again and again over decades now. Trust me, its fun!

Leaf out of a match toss coin's diary!

Friday, July 15, 2011

Its been a while...

It's been a while since I last decided to revive this blog ( which was once the only love of my life) and a lot has happened. A lot has happened since I last wrote and published something on this medium and I thought I'll quickly run through them so that the time gap is at least done away with (only to make myself feel better).

Around four months ago in March, I was probably talking about the sorrow of missing home, the joy of staying away from it, the new hostel experiences. Never before this would I have thought that in four months, I would've seen so many things occur and bring me back to the same situation where I begin to miss home yet again.

Thanks to the Internal Exams (or the lack of giving it) I had my first tryst with a backlog. The moment I told mom about it, her eyes must have rounded up and popped out and she couldn't believe what she was hearing. While I spent a few days trying to explain how it wasn't that big a deal (of course, in vain) I also managed to bag, what was my first internship opportunity. Won't delve too much into that but its probably one of the best experiences I've had so far. So I'll steer clear through Irfan interview and Gilchrist-Legend- mention (ofcourse, I had to write this :D) and talk about what else I've been upto.

Stayed in Mumbai for 45 days and didn't see the city around too much (lowest point in my life so far) but still managed to have the kind of fun I was hoping to have. IPL, they said, lacked the frills this year, but somehow it always amused me. Two new teams came in, one entertained in an adopted home and the other in outrageous costumes (Entertainment ke liye Kuch bhi karega contestants? ) and both sucked pretty much. Again, I don't want to get too much into the tournament, but was pretty disappointed how DC were lethargic and MI just couldn't finish things off (yet again!) but the lowest point ever was probably CSK winning again!

So, IPL ended and so did the internship. Learnt a few things that I probably wouldn't in any classroom. Spent the most jobless 20 days back home (after a testing 45-day Mumbai stint, mind you). Began to get excited about getting back to campus, came back and it was completely different. Different because a lot of things changed. Rules changed. Timings changed (God Save my roommate. It's going to be a year long struggle for the poor chap). But there I was in class again, sleeping with a pen in my hand (It's been a signature classroom move since Graduation days ), there I was writing random things in a completely different (and depressingly boring) class. Ended up with a 15-page Screenplay for a movie I intend to make (Probably the second most exciting things that's coming up very soon). The phase when you start missing home has already begun and will continue to haunt me till I go back home once (even if it is just for a couple of days). The phase where you miss ghar ka khaana the most had begun, the phase when you miss your people, your city, your language, your room, your bitch (Activa ofcourse) have all settled and it doesn't seem like they came in with a return ticket.

Anyhow, in other news, India did manage to trounce the Windies in both 50-over format and the Test series but somehow it wasn't convincing. I was extremely disappointed to see the way Murali Vijay played. The man who came in, in 2008 as a specialist TEST opener and played just a couple of years of IPL, has been arm-twisted into a slogger. One could see that in his game in the test series and I was furious, to say the least. I really had hopes of seeing him give Sehwag a run for his money at the top and accompany the Sehwag-Gambhir duo as a reserve opener for a long time to come. But, with Mukund already pushing him down the pecking order, I see a daunting task for the otherwise stylish Right hander from Tamil Nadu (who also happens to be Mukund's opening partner in first class matches). But having said that, Mukund just landed the chance of his lifetime and a few good outing on testing wickets at England can help him grab enough eye balls to consider him ahead Vijay in the future as well. Kinda looking forward to something of that sort.
Yes, India's tour of England is probably the most exciting thing that is coming up right now. Cannot wait to watch the current best team take on an insanely in-form home team. Can't wait to see Sachin drive Tremlett through the covers and bring up his first century at Lords', can't wait to see Dravid play a typical fighting innings and bring up a gritty double ton with a glorious square cut off Anderson. More importantly, Just cannot wait to see Ishant Sharma show the same form he did in Australia.

Exciting month ahead :D


Monday, March 21, 2011

Ah Well.

Post Graduation is a bitch. Makes you do weird things. At least makes ME do weird things. Not weird exactly but surely not things that I can be very proud of. Coming to think of it, less than a year ago, (around 9 months ago ) I was such a happy free kid back at home in Hyderabad. My future was certainly unclear but I was happy atleast (okay, I know that doesn't sound right, but its really okay mom). It's not like I'm not happy now but the past 9 months have brought along way too many changes, in and around me. Even if I steer clear of the little pleasures of living a wonderful bachelor's life in the boys' hostel, singing and dancing on arbit songs, hogging maggi and watching movies at ungodly hours, I've somehow developed the appetite for worrying a little too easily ( Ironically, lost my actual appetite and a lot of weight went along ).

So, there I was in Hyderabad, sitting in my room, playing 1-on-1 fifa with Madhu and talking cricket, chelsea,chicks and so much more and here I am, still playing fifa but doing loads of other stuff as well. The last 9 months have taught me a lot but I really do not like the pressure that tags along all the time. Maybe its just in my head, maybe I'm better that what I make of myself, maybe I need to speak up a little more and look for opportunities...maybe!

But being a staunch believer of alls well that ends well, I think as time progresses I will get used to the pressure ( Just incase, Im not used to it already) and make a better person in a year's time than I could have ever been, if I had chosen to stay back at Hyderabad and continued to reside in my little nutshell called 'an extremely laid back life.' I'm glad about being here and the excitement of being ready to begin working in a year's time will keep me in high spirits (if anything else doesn't :P). When I read through this post, I really don't know why exactly I decided to write this but well, I'm glad...yes, I'm glad about this as well. That's all for now...I guess.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Its here again.

~~~ Can the proteas' not choke?~~~

~~~ Can we really win our second~~~

~~~ Can co-hosts Sri Lanka dominate throughout? ~~~

~~~ Can the Aussies retain it? ~~~~

~~~ Can the English be a surprise package?~~~

~~~ Can Pakistan silence the cricketing world?~~~

~~~ Can Sachin add this feather to his Illustrious cap?~~~

~~~ Can Murali end on a high?~~~

~~~ Can the Windies revive their old World Cup form?~~~

~~~ Can the Kiwis play out of their character?~~~

~~~ Can a minnow win its first? ~~~




Saturday, January 22, 2011

To Revival, With Love

Walking along a small but busy road, a thought hit me in the head like a tracer bullet and brought a rather tragic end to all the laziness that was filled up there. I suddenly felt like a 4-year old kid who was let loose in an open field after 4 days of illness and he just ran, ran till he was out of sight. I felt like an out of form striker who made his way back to score the penultimate goal and take his side to a much needed victory. I felt like a spider that clawed its way back to the web. I felt like a pauper who just had a sudden turn of fortune. After an unexpected and involuntary hibernation from this love of mine for over 4 months, I suddenly have such overwhelming feelings running up and across my system. With that thought in my head, I'll set for myself a very ambitious target of one post per day starting from now. So here's to revival, with love!

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Naav.

लहरों की गूँज से
लगने लगा कुछ अजीब सा डर
कोई और न था वहां
अत्तक गया मैं उस नाव पर

लहरें आगे बढती रही
नाव मेरी न बढ़ सकी
दूर दूर तक कोई न था
अत्त्का रहा मैं उस नाव पर

लहरों ने न रुख मोड़ा
मैंने भी होंसला न छोड़ा
दानव सी लगने लगी अब लहरें
पर बैठा रहा मैं उस नाव पर

P.S: My inspirations for this piece of work...

1.Naav,Song From Udaan। A song I've been addicted to it for over a month and a half now. Thank you Amit Trivedi.

2. Sameer Satija, a friend up here at SIMC. The man who understands and writes hindi poetry better than anyone I've ever known. Kudos.

3. Anup Bishnoi, the guy whom I don't know but whose blog I end up reading almost daily. Love the poetry, especially the ones in Hindi. Love the thought process, hope to reach that level some day.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Man.Woman.FOOTBALL!

A loving Husband's ballad to beloved Wife...


I will always let it go...

Even if you are mean…

You are my USA…

I’m your Robert Green…


I will put your interests first…

Because I know that’s the way…

I will be your Saurez…

If you are my Uruguay…


I will never let you down…

Expect a lot from me…

I will always fly high…

I will be your Jabulani…


I’ll break every monotony…

You’ll want to give me a kiss…

If life is like Spain…

Then I’ll do a Swiss…


I’ll respect all your opinions...

And accept every glitch…

I’ll never do an Anelka...

Even if you be Domenech…


If anyone ever troubles you…

I’ll hurt them with my knee…

They may be the Argentine…

I’ll be your Germany…


We’ll fight every hurdle…

I’ll take every pain…

Obstacles may be like the Dutch…

But we will be Spain...


Love? Football? Or Love for Football?

Friday, July 16, 2010

Note To Self.

~~~ LOVE what you write...stop over criticizing yourself~~~~

~~~ Write something daily~~~~

~~~ Talk to mom more often~~~

~~~ Try not to miss home so much~~~

~~~ Don't lose your appetite any further~~~

~~~ Learn everything you've wanted to. This is your chance~~~

~~~ Get your ass to reading. Its been forever~~~

~~~ Give poetry writing a break. You are compromising on quality~~~

~~~ Screw the schedule, Enjoy your weekends~~~

~~~ Love the people around. They're all awesome~~~

~~~ Play a sport ~~~

~~~ Try improving your handwriting~~~

~~~ Start a new blog~~~

~~~ As much as you love Pune, stay a hyderabadi~~~

~~~ Listen to music more often~~~

~~~ Keep yourself happy~~~

Thursday, May 13, 2010

I Yearn For....

One last lunch with loads of junk...
One last lecture, just to bunk...
One last scribble in that all-in-one...
One last day, a day of fun...

One last game for settling scores...
One last game of sixes and fours...
One last exam and the morning struggle...
One last outing, an outing so subtle...

One last birthday, to celebrate...
One last submission, beyond the date...
One last treat and a cake on the face...
One last rumour, without a base...

One last go at dumb charades...
One fake story to the gate's guards...
One last struggle with tables and graph...
One last incident, to remember and laugh...

One last debate on the IPL...
One last wait for the ring of the bell...
One last chance to pull someone's leg...
One last result, for marks to beg...

One last peek into the memory lane...
One last summer, winter or rain...
One last chatter in our own dialect...
One last picture, a picture perfect...

One last laugh for a very bad joke...
One last dew, pepsi or coke...
One last secret buried in the heart...
One last hug, a hug to part...

P.S: This one is for my Loyola Ke Logaan :)

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Another One Of Those....

Yes...I had moved on from 'HER'...we parted ways because a lot of complications came about and shattered probably everything...I did not picture myself with anyone else...at least not so soon...but certain things are never going turn out as you expect them to , do they?...

It was a cold chilly day in the starting of December...it was clearly the festive season...Christmas always brought a good feeling even if I never really celebrated it myself.
So, on that December evening, I was just roaming around with my folks, and thats when the unexpected happened...I saw a HER...and it was early December 2009 since when I started believing in Love at first Sight...I got a fraction of a second to just glance at her, and yes, my friends, she was mesmerizing, to say the least.

At that moment, she seemed like everything I need...everything I always needed and the excitement rushed in like never before...I felt like a 5 year old standing outside a candy store.
I decided I'll fight my fears...walk up to her, get down on my knees and say You're the most beautiful person I've ever seen...I love you...
So, with such a buildup in my head, I started walking towards her...my heartbeat synchronized with each step of mine and my walk was wobbly. In cricketing/sporting terms,I was off to shaky start! But hey, I did manage to talk...here's how the conversation went...

Me: Umm..excuse me...

She: Looked at me and gave a restrained smile *score* Yes?...

Me: --Sweating a little more profusely now-- Well...I..hi..I am..Umm..you're really gorgeous...umm...I mean...I'm sorry...I'll go...

She: --Looked straight back at me...more like an angry glare--*Own Goal* What? Excuse me?..Who are you? Wait don't leave?..Who the hell are you?

Me: --Okay..I'm really sorry...I just saw you from across the glass door and the first thought that came to my mind was BEAUTIFUL...so I had this undying urge to come to you and blurt it out but I guess I only embarrassed you and I'm really sorry for that...You won't see me here again..bbye..

She: Hey...wait...you din't commit a felony... in fact, thank you
-- Another smile...this time a broader one-- *Another score...I'm back in the game baby**

Me: I don't know If I'm going to sound like a complete Idiot, but after looking at you..I have started believing in love at first sight...I'm serious...I'm in love with you...

She : -- Laughing uncontrollably-- * That was a deathly blow* Are you serious?...First sight? Love?...21st century man!!

Me: -- Keep cool soldier, I told myself--- What has century got to do with your looks and my emotions? Do they have any indirect connection whatsoever?

She: -- Laugh turned into a serious face...sort of a disgusted look-- Okay..fine..maybe there is something like that...but I don't think it can happen to me...
-- She Didn't sound convincing--

Me: * Capitalize son! Now or Never* Look, you cannot tell that it certainly won't happen to you...it can happen to anyone...and it will never let you know before it happens...I didn't know it a few minutes before and a glass door away from you...

She: --Turning Away-- Look, I'm not like that...I can't decide in such a haste...and you've got to admit...this is crazy...

Me: Its called spontaneity...All I got was a glimpse of you...just one look...and I fell...trust me, it was against my reflexes...it was involuntary...

This conversation went on for a while...it was mentally very draining and I dragged it along for a few more days...eventually she gave in and said a YES in late December...

So, after 4 months of being together...I don't regret it one bit...neither does she...

Me: Hey sweetheart...

She: Hey --Smiling...And this ones probably the widest one I've ever seen on her--

Me: Let's go for a ride...

I knew from the beginning that things would work between us...I still vividly remember how it all happened...the first glimpse of her on the side of the glass door...and it was as early as then that I knew that things between us will definitely 'click'...
So here we are...together...and madly in love...at least I am !

P.S. She = Cannon XS120!

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Where The Hell Are We?

It was a normal morning...seated in the second last row, I was wondering what I should be doing at that moment. The class had already begun and my head went about its routine job...wandering aimlessly. I can't recollect what exactly I was thinking back then, but yeah it sure wasn't what the lecturer in front was talking about. I don't even remember which class it was...direct taxes?...or maybe indirect taxes?...appoint the same lecturer for multiple subjects and this is what happens.

Coming back to my mind, I was lost like always. But this time I was staring, staring at the black board in front and that's when the lecturer stopped yapping for a second and shifted her attention towards yours truly[ if they knew i was the reason, a lot of last bencher souls would have blessed me...I'm guessing a few would have]. So, like a monotonous ritual, I was asked to stand up and repeat what she just told the whole class about some god damned section[I'm guessing]. Now, me being me, wouldn't open my mouth [Even if Ankur was prompting the answer from front]...I just din't feel the need to give her an answer. Yes, she's right, I wasn't listening to her class. In my defense, I would like to say...I wasn't really interested in the crap.

I began to wonder why are we going through such a crazy system of a stuffed up curriculum. How is it ever going to help us. A couple of years back, when I made my way into L.A [Loyola Academy...I just fancy calling it L.A.] I was told that the lush green campus was a very beautiful way to cover up the kind of hectic schedule the institution promises. Two years down, I can say with great confidence that I've hardly learnt anything in terms of the subject. This I say after 5 full semesters with an average of 7 subjects in each. In such a freaky system, all I remember doing was getting the lecturer to blurt out the whole of the question paper a few days before the exam...all in the name of 'important questions.' I'm not denying the fact that I absolutely love to receive 'important questions' but then they give away the glaring errors of the very system. Yes, even a 4th grader with a back breaking back pack will tell you how his exams results do not truly reflect his knowledge. So, who are we trying to kid with such a system?

In other news, my dear friend Jeswin Abraham Jose [yes, a mallu..what else do you expect in L.A ] sends me a text message that said lets cheer team India to victory today. Well, team India always takes you to the team led by Mr.Dhoni while there's a whole different sport that's apparently our national pride...yes, you memorized the name right, it indeed is called hockey and that's what Jeswin was talking about. So, this is now a cliche debate and I dont even know how Im going to contribute to it. Why does it take a bollywood's apparently inspiring MOVIE to get us hooked [probably for a week at the max] to what we chose to portray as our national sport? Why is there a lack of natural drive towards the sport? If we can see a bunch of men from all around the world [except Indians ofcourse] kicking a ball around, then what stops us from appreciating our own national sport? Why...why on earth is our national sport not in the helm of affairs on the sporting front?...Internal politics? Lack of Sponsors? Well, this is going to go on...World Cups will come...and there will only be a handful of Jeswins who will go onto cheer our team in this very sport. We will know what Dhoni ate for breakfast when he led the team to a T20 world cup victory way back in 2007, but we'll shiver and probably even pass out, if asked to name atleast a handful of the national team hockey players, at gunpoint. Such is our condition.

Coming back to the classroom, well, I still can't figure out what the last 5 semesters have given me...I still can't figure out how they'll help me with my future ahead. Oh yeah, the mark sheet will sure have a make or break effect but how much of it is a true portrayal of what I really am?
Yes, in a couple of months I'll be a graduate, A commerce graduate...but no one out there will ever know as to how much of 'commerceness' [ i just coined the word ] I have in me...No one!

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Netaji Ki Zubani...

Bhaiyon Aur Behenon ( Ah! a fancy hindi start...I actually mean, "Listen Up Suckers!") Today, I stand before you on this podium from where I want to thank each one of you for giving me this opportunity and considering me to be fit for this post... I thank you all for your efforts ( Yeah...Thanks...You've done your job...Now its my turn...you can call it a payback if you want to). I want to take this opportunity to tell you that I'm here to help you people, to get us all out of the economic crises we are all going through and work hard to regain and restore our regular and yet very happy lives ( Oh Man! I can't believe I pulled this off. With just half-an-hour of mugging up, I can convince anyone on this Earth and even beyond with such bull crap ). I also want to tell you that I'm going to do my best to be a better leader and my only aim is your benefits...thats what matters the most ( Ofcourse, Not more than my bank balance). I also wanted to point out to you that I'm here with a special additional motive of beating the social stigmas which are sadly prevalent in our society even today ( Haha Kidding Again!...this was actually a part of my mugged up speech...forgot to say it back then...wanted to make sure I blurt these words out because I've heard that emotional fools like you fall for things like these very easily). I want to make it clear that I'm here with a clean state of mind and I'm going to be nothing like my predecessor because I've heard rumours doing the rounds that he ate up a major chunk of your money and did nothing for you ( Ofcourse, I'm not going to be like that jackass...Forget majority, I will eat up every penny you people own). I intend to extend my full fledged support to the police department and various security personnels by aiding them, in the quest to nab corruption and other criminal acts that are on the rise ( This ofcourse means I will corrupt the police officials as well and carry out criminal acts of my own. C'mon, the department belongs to me...they can't arrest me). After going through a lot of past data and statistics, I have come to an understanding that the literacy rate here is very low. I would like to encourage people to send their young ones to schools and colleges so that they can study and have a bright and colourful future ( And besides, I get 45% of the fees that you pay to the educational institutions...I call this amount the 'existence tax' for them).
Also, I would like to mention that the conditions in our remote villages and under developed towns has been saddening and brought me to tears. ( You believe this as well?? ) And hence, with such a rapid growth in the fields of science and technology, I propose to integrate these backward areas. I intend to provide electricity at subsidized rates and laptops to every individual in these backward areas. ( Now what the hell will you do with light and technology. I'll go with cheap liquor instead). I hence, want to conclude by saying that I'm here to bring about a positive change and change is exactly what we need to achieve what we want to. ( This one is for my desi-Obama fans...feel good about me now). Thank You. Jai Hind!



Friday, January 8, 2010

Underdog

They say you always lose…

They say you always bruise…

They are men and you are log…

They say you’re an underdog…


They say you can never win…

They say you are like rusted pin..

They tend to sprint while you always jog..

They say you’re an underdog..


They always put you down…

They wear a tux while you’re in a gown..

They claim to be winter, while you’re just the fog…

They say you’re an underdog…


They say you’ve got nothing in you..

They’re the pros and you’re very new…

They hog the limelight while you tend to slog..

They say you’re an underdog…


What they don’t see is your urge to perform…

Your mettle to face up to the fiercest storm…

They know you can even make them clog…

And yet they say you’re just an underdog…


P.S : This is for all those people/teams who never start as the favourties, who never look as the potential winners but nevertheless continue to proceed with what I could only describe as indomitable spirit and achieve what they are never expected to achieve…I admire you!

Friday, December 4, 2009

THE conversation...

Like I had always feared, this scary conversation was always round the corner...I don't know how I managed to live through it...but I guess I just did...I was scared…really very scared to confront her…I knew she’d be shattered when I’ll break the news to her that I have to go…leave her forever…I did not even know how to begin…it sure was going to be tough…but I had to do it…I had to let her know about it…I really had no choice… so brace yourself for a heart wrenching conversation that's coming up....

Me: Hey…

- - -I think she already knows I’m going to leave…her moist eyes are making it tougher for me…maybe my eyes are moist too---

She: Hey..

- - -I’m sure she already knows it…her tone doesn't seem right- - -

She: So, I hear you’re leaving?...forever?

Me: Umm…yes… I have to…

- - -She cut me short- - -

She: What?!?...what do you mean you have to?

- - - This is surely going to be a tough ride- - -

Me: Look…I’m really sorry…

- - -Cut me short again- - -

She: Oh yeah…that makes everything fine…I’m so much happier than I was a few seconds back!!

Me: Please…don’t do this…you’re making it hard for me…

She: Hard for you?!? Do you even know what I’m going through right now?!?

Me: I know…I really do…its really hard for me too…but I really can’t do anything about it…my mom thinks it’s the best for the two of us…

She: Oh…so your mom decides this?...Who have I been with? A 5-year old? I’d be behind bars if the police found out!

- - - Sarcasm coming out in an angry tone can give the effect of a sledge hammer rammed against your forehead that could knock you out- - - -

Me: Please…listen to me…I can’t go against my mom, can I?...that happens only in the movies…

- - - I could never be convinced with such stupid words…and here I’m using it as one of my countless meaningless reasons to leave- - -

She: And that’s why you’re leaving me? Because your mom said you should…you didn’t “consult” her when you met me, did you?

- - - At this point of time I had a feeling that I was losing my cool as well…but I stayed calm…after all, she was the love of my life and I was going to abandon her…my eyes sure are moist- - -

She: Come on…think about it…you can’t do this to me…you know me for 11 freaking years and we’ve been together for the last 2 of them…and all of a sudden you want to leave? Without a valid reason? Did I make any mistake? Whatever it is, please tell me…We really can make this work…please….

- - - Tear drops trickled down her cheeks…I choked- - -

Me: No no…you’ve done nothing wrong…you are surely the best thing that happened to me…and I still love you more than anything else…..

She: Then why are you leaving?...If nothing is wrong and you really love me as much as I love you, why would you leave?

Me: I really can’t help…its not a decision I chose to take…its someone else’s decision that’s just binding on me…I have certain responsibilities that I really can’t run away from…Its as heart breaking for me as it is for you…and that’s not a consolation…it’s just that certain things go through the process called change and many times they’re inevitable…this is very unfortunately one of those things…

- - - She looked at me helplessly…tears began to roll on faster…I felt worse…I couldn’t believe I was doing this to her- - -

She: So you’re saying you’re leaving in spite of the fact that you don’t want to? Who would do that?

- - - I couldn’t watch her cry anymore…this was when my tears broke out too- - -

Me: I know…I feel like a total idiot having to do something like this...but I really don’t have a choice…

- - - As I finished saying this, I gave this fact a thought…Did I really not have a choice? ...yeah I really didn’t- - -

- - - There was a pause…as she wiped her tears off her cheeks…and forced a smile…even with teary eyes and a half-forced-smile, she looked stunningly gorgeous...it made things tougher for me- - -

She: So, when are you leaving?

Me: In a week or two…can I ask you for one last favour?

She: I didn’t see this coming, I thought you already placed your knockout punch in my face a couple of minutes back…

- - - There goes the sledge hammer again…you can’t even duck- - -

- - -I just looked at her…managed a faint smile and looked down fighting my tears- - -

She: Okay...I’m sorry…so what can I do for you for one last time?

Me: Umm…Till I’m here…that is for another 7-10 days, can we spend time together…its going to be tough to not be around you…I just want to stay with you as much as I can till I leave…that’s about it…so can we?

She: Hmmm…I think we can manage that…

- - -She turned away fighting more tears and I did the same- - -

Both of us know that it’s going to be really tough to be living without each other…so we could probably live together for the next week and add another week to our glorious but short life together…I still can’t believe I’m going to leave her…

P.S:: "She" = My room!

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Hyderabadi Yaaron ;)

Okay...This HAS to be longest time period since I've blogged...2 full months :(...I have no clue clue why I haven't really been able to blog but now I'm just glad I'm getting back to doing it...in 'Hyderabadi' Ishtyle :D
For a very long time now [post watching The Angrez] I have rather been obssessed with the fact that I belong to this wonderful city....the fact that I'm a tamilian vanishes when I begin conversing in hindi :D...kiraak [hyderabadi] hindi baat kartun yaaron ;)
So, since then Ive wanted to write something like what I just have....This is for my favourite Hyderabadis in India And Around The World [Read Australia]...So..here goes...

Traffic Jam mein cuttaan maarenge..
Gaadi thoke toh aakhri ginenge...
Ek potti gayi toh dusri patayenge..
Pinde ke tensionon ko lite le lenge...

Late Night Laang drive jaake Omlettaan Khaate...
Har do din ko biryani dabate...
Kya toh bhi kiraak gogglaan pehenke...
Gilchrist ko bhi cheering karte...

Zyada pheke toh 'abba' boltun...
Natak kare toh 'maaki kirkiri' boltun...
Kya karun chicha, Hyderabadi hoon...
Toh jo boltun aiseich boltun....

P.S :: Soumya...this one was for you...abhi toh convert hoja...[Vin...do the needful :D]

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Random....

Well well well...It's been very long since I 'wrote' something on my sweetheart [yup...my blog is my lou forever :D]...so I thought I'll make an attempt...so here goes...
My current favourite desi song :: Aahun Aahun from Love Aaj Kal...Haven't been able to get it out of my head :D
One Person I miss the most right now :: Vinayak :((..Kaiku gaya ustad ? :((
One person's company that I miss now :: Mr.Madhusudhanan J. :P
Best Friend forever :: Bharat [Motu] ...kidhar toh bhi gaon mein baitha saala :|
The Most RAD person I've ever Known :: Madame Sushmita...even if I've told it 123213543245 times, I'll say it just one more time...Girl you're RAD...I lou you :D
The Most Beautiful person I know :: Srinidhi Venkatesh...My first ever and the longest ever crush :)
Weirdest Company At "Work" :: Trishnanta ji!...The weird-awesome bong lady a.k.a Mogambo Madam :D
The One Chick Who Can Single Handedly Beat Me Up:: Preeti...Lou u Rowdy Rangamma :P
The Nicest Female I know ::: Keerthi...Lou u too :)
The "Angrezi" Song I'm stuck to:: Rockstar- Nikelback...kiraak lyrics hai yaaron! :D
Most Famous Person In College:: Mr.Ankur Lodha...The "Good Samaritan" :P
THE most hilarious person in class : Rohan Domnic Borges...Mr.Extreme R90 :P
The Gujju Geek : Dipes(h) Patel... :D
The Smartest brain on a Cricket Field :: Jeswin...The Mallu Don :P
The Most (hyper) active girl I know :: Mary [Hi! :P]
The Gorgeous One : Priyanka :) [Haaloooo! :D ]
The Wheelie Guy :: Mr.Rohit Kumar
Chuddi Buddy :: C.H.Rohit[Happy Birthday Man :)]
The 'joblessness' competitor:: Tarun [You are the king of joblessness!...Hail The Guitarist ! :D ]
One Celebrity I hate :: Toughie between Cristiano Ronaldo and Kareena Kapoor!
One Celebrity I love :: Konkana Sen Sharma :D :D ~~~Drooooooooooooooool~~~
One thing I want to beat:: Stage Fear
The Current Most Happening Thing In My Life:: Work At Vidyouth :)
Last Class I attended :: Company Law...Playing Poker :D
One Album I Can't Stop Listening To:: Dev D!
The best blog post I've ever read :: http://thecloakedenigma.blogspot.com/2008/07/life-altering-rendezvous.html ...If only I could reach that level of thought process!---bows----
One Blog That I Enjoy Reading : http://grassonfire.blogspot.com/ ... My inspiration for the lone attempt at hindi poetry :D
The Song that's playing as I type in :: I'm Leaving On A Jet Plane- John Denver
One thing I haven't done for long : Writing a poem :(
One Weird Thing I Could Possibly Do This Weekend :: Attempt poetry in hyderabadi lang :D...Watch out for this space...I really might do it :D
The Last Movie I Saw : Kaminey...The best ever made in b'wood!
One Thing I Genuinely Intend On Doing :: Learning to talk Telugu before Vin gets back to hydie :)
My Obsession:: My Room and Lefthandedness :D
Last Novel I Read :: Digital Fortress...on the phone! :D
Current Book I'm Reading :: Rainmaker by John Grisham...Flicked it from Vin's Collections :D
My Wishlist :: 1. Complete Collection Of Calvin And Hobbes 2. True Colors By Adam Gilchrist 3. PS3 :D 4. A Rad Bandana :D 5. A sexy High-end digital Camera !
One "thing" I miss :: My Deccan Chargers Badge :(((((...Ustad , someone choried it :(
My Room is :: Super Duper Messy and filled with Posters :D
Very Soon, I will be doing :: Grafitti in my garrage :D
My Vehicle is :: My Biatch :D
One Thing I've Mastered Over The Years :: Arre apna Hyderabadi Hindi Yaaron :D
Acting Experiance :: Pappu in Hau Main Hyderabadi :D
The Most "Danceable" Song :: Bhutto :D
One thing I want to be a "Thope" at : Photography :D
The Song that's playing right now :: Go Charlie Go -kaminey
The Last Angrezi Movie I saw :: Angels And Demons....Ayelet Zurer...You Israeli Beauty :D
One Person I Want To Meet :: Adam Craig Gilchrist :)
Things That I want to continue doing even when Im 80 :: Eat Chocolates, Play Cricket and Cheer For Chelsea!
The Best way to turn 20:: Being as close as 100 metres away from Adam Gilchrist...I say its Possible this year !
A Couple Of Crazy/Adventurous Things I'll Do Around 4-5 years down the Lane:: Go Trekking with mom and dad and learn river rafting with friends!
That is all for now...will add more to the list when things hit my head...cheers!

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Arri!

Baigan Ka Swine Flu...
Pinde Ka Recession!!

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Elsewhere...

I walked down the street…

But my footsteps were elsewhere…

I tried to evade hurdles…

But my reflexes were elsewhere…


I wanted to make up my mind…

But my thoughts were elsewhere…

I wanted to make a choice..

But my discretion power was elsewhere…


I wanted to be true…

But my conscience was elsewhere…

I wanted to hang on and wait…

But my patience was elsewhere…


I wanted to go all the way..

But my will power was elsewhere…

I wanted to freak out…

But my anger was elsewhere…


I wanted to shout out loud…

But my enthusiasm was elsewhere…

I wanted to ask her out…

But my confidence was elsewhere…

Thursday, July 30, 2009

You Beauty!

P.S: For Now, Thanks For the Pic Vin :)...wait till it releases in India...That hand of yours on it
will be mine and we'll admire it sitting on your bed when you get back to hydie ;)
And Yea...I won't let you flick this one, like you flicked White Tiger :P

Thursday, July 23, 2009

HYDERABADI Tamilian ???

Okay...this post is going to be partly in english and partly in our very own hyderabadi hindi because....well, you'll know the reason at the end of the post ;)

Long long ago in 1989, I was born in this very city...after a couple of years I learned that meri ammi jaan ka jeeb[ mother tongue :D] tamil hai and I ought to speak in it...
Ischool ko gaye toh poore logaan hindi mein ich baat kare...main bhi wohich kiya..mereko telugu bhi nahin aata toh hindi se ich kaam chalaya...my best friend at school[from U.K.G] was a telugu...phir bhi hindi mein ich baat kare humlogan...mereko farak nahin pada..ischool mein ich mera hindi- hyderabadi hindi mein transforming hogaya...log became logaan....whatever became kya toh bhi...dude became chicha and so on...Abhi dekhe toh mereko tamil ich theek se nahin aara baat karne ko....logaan bole..arri..kaisa haula hai bey tu...mother tongue ich nahin aata tereko...main bola..dekho yaaron..tamil main ghar pe baat kartun...bahaar aaye toh myself pucca hyderabadi...biryani khaatun..hyderabadi baat kartun...kaun kya ukhadta??...
For me its really strange with languages...my [tamilian]friends don't consider me as a tamilian for I don't speak it often...infact, I'd almost feel left out in a tamilan convo that takes place occasionally with friends...
There is another catch as well, I can very well say that I've been in this city since I was born, so that makes it almost 20 full years and yet I still can't talk the local language, telugu!...
I can understand it pretty well, but talking is just not the thing I could do...it kinda makes me conscious...par apna hyderabadi mein baat karne ko bole toh..kiraaaak baat kartun...
I could probably claim I've mastered this awesome sounding language...the one that gives hindi a hydie touch...

Around 5-6 years ago, I remember I had normal or shudh hindi conversation with a cousin of mine who spoke more in Hindi than in tamil to me...After a couple of years of getting the hang of hydie hindi or lets say after diving head first into hydie hindi, I can no longer converse with him in hindi...A couple of words in the shudh version of the language and I'll get derailed into hydie form of it...kuch nahin kar sakte yaaron...aadat hogaya mereko...

People say it sounds a little cheap sometimes..but I beg to differ...its just another form of hindi...a localized one and I'm proud of the fact that I've majored in it :D
I'll say I'm a tamilian by tongue and a hydie by the heart :) ...

Kuch bhi bolo yaaron, hydie hindi ich aakhri kiraak language hai aur mein isme ich baat kartun...
To the ones who don't appreciate the language and the people who speak it, [Like I've said before] Lite lo yaaron, hum aise ich hain!..

Cheers!

Damn :(

It was like every other wednesday...1st the weekly test..then two hours that just went by quicker than it would go on any other day..followed by the all important lunch break [hehe]...Post-Lunch was going to be nothing different with 2 lab hours[computer]...We would get into the lab...search for seats beside the Airconditioner...Type words written in the notes,most of which is not understood by any of us, into the screen in front and fool around during major parts of the 2 hours...Yesterday was no different...or maybe it was...
I was busy trying to type in what my notes read so that I could finish it off and get to what I like doing most in the lab..chat away to glory :D...
Rohit was sitting to my left trying to do what I was doing and typed into his computer screen..there was a joke cracked[which I sadly can't remember] and we laughed and got back to our respective screens and then after a dramatic pause he spoke a few words that made me sigh and scared,in a way...

Dude..did you realize..we guys are gonna be together only for the next 6-7 months..uske baad sab yahaan wahaan nikal lete... the last few words resounded in my mind and it brought about a sudden feeling of fear...I looked at him..gave a smile and nodded...indeed it is going to be the last 6-7 months...

Entering Loyola Academy a couple of years ago, I did have a lot of expectations..personally, I loved the campus and the feel around it...
As 1st year began, we were sucked into the semester system which we weren't acquainted with..
It probably took all of us, two full semesters to be comfortable with each other and thus, formed the 'gang'. First year wasn't very 'eventful' as such...we had, what we could call subtle fun...

2nd year was eventful with Soch and Resonnance taking away most of the time..by then, we had come to one conclusion...however crazy the system was..the fact that we've met amazing people and made amazing friends @ L.A is undeniable...2nd year could be titled as the 'year of fun'...it saw the gang grow bigger and stronger..awesome juniors came in and in came a little more bonding :) and two semesters passed by with more friends and scary syllabus to cover.

Just a month into the final year, we're already starting to fear the future..not for the fact that its kinda uncertain as to where each one of us would land...but for the fact that each one of us would be scattered all over...it'll seem like someone from above is un-solving a fully solved jigsaw puzzle!...
So, the next 8-9 months are going to be i-dont-know-how....The fact that its the last few months of the 'gang' being together has registered in our minds...we could even end up living through it with a very saddening feel or we could make the most of it [hell..obviously its going to be the latter]...

They say, once you finish your stint at one place, you go to new places..make new friends and life would continue to revolve around 'gangs' even if its a whole new one...but deep down inside I want to cling on to this awesome gang I've found at L.A...they're just the most amazing people I've ever known...
Love you people :)


Saturday, June 27, 2009

To Vin!


A few things for my most favourite person in the world...here goes...

~~~~Ppl like it or not, we are the best self photo takers...it all began when we were just a couple of feet tall at athai's place ;)..okay vik anna took the pic but we can still take the credit for it..it was about us and those aviators ;D~~~~

~~~~ Hi moms, Hi pops...aheeeeeee (only you know the pronounciation =)) )~~~~~

~~~~ Don. Black Jacket. Vin! Vin! Vin!~~~~

~~~~ Marriages in Chennai are awesome...so are Chandliers ;D~~~~

~~~~ "Umm...I'm going to class 6" ...RITE! *Disappear* ~~~~

~~~~ "Shaadi mein aaya kya" ..hehehe!

~~~~ "Jao...Nakko baitho" ~~~~

~~~~ V-nayak student! ~~~~

~~~~ "Hau ussimebusy hoon..jaldi bol"..hehe..games khel aur busy hoja..and keep me updated ;)~~~~

~~~~ "Arre Pappu...hyderabad mein potti patana sabse mishkil cheez" ..hau hau maalum..nothin else explains your futile attempts :P~~~~

~~~~ Angrez.Andaz Apna Apna.Black Friday.The Inside Man.Lage Raho Munna Bhai.Slumdog.Dev D.Darna Zaroori Hai. :) ~~~~

~~~~ Da Vinci Code!...what a theatre venu!..mera shaadi udhar ich! :D~~~~

~~~~ V.E.N.U- the DC phenomenon..hehe...~~~~

~~~~ To the KKR cheerleaders [from the stands]..zyaada dance mat karo...kuch naya nahin ukhade tum logan..humko sab log harate [after the loss in 2008]~~~~

~~~~ Boom Boom Afridi and Andhra Symonds!...hehehe~~~~

~~~~ The orange tinge might have faded away..but we all know what your fingers went through last December :P ~~~~

~~~~2009, Go chargers, Go chargers, Go Go Go Goooo...Deccan Chargers Deccan Chargers..Go Go Go Goooooooooo :)~~~~

~~~~ I have to tell the whole world that my pierced cousin brother watched CC2C in the theatre!....and Aap Ka Suroor as well =)) ~~~~~

~~~~My sense of humour was always awesome..it took you "certain happenings" to realize it ;D~~~~

~~~~ Stop going by your great "assumptions" ...they suck :P..ask me :D~~~~

~~~~Take my word. 1 week of hangout.1 month after that;) ...Do saal ke baad main naachtun..teri shaadi mein :P~~~~

~~~~~ Remember. If the photo doesn't look good, it has to be mistimed!!...so DON'T even think about taking "certain things" lite ;)~~~~

~~~~~ Remember my "expressions" on each pic you showed me as well :D~~~~

~~~~~ Rockstar.Kar Sajda(remix).Jai ho.Ring Ring Ringa.Tenu Le.Go Chargers.Dooba Dooba.Jaane kya. are all a part of my playlist now :)~~~~

~~~~ Tenu le is the anthem! :D~~~~

~~~~Not just us...Venu will miss you too :(~~~~

~~~~~ Stop watching Tamizh serials bey "C"(abbreviated for security reasons!)~~~~

~~~~Foreign chale gaya bey badacow?? ...I couldn't believe it until the freaking glass door began to close behind you :( :(~~~~

~~~~ You have no clue how tough its going to be for me...I'm going to miss you like I've missed no one before :( :(~~~~

P.S:: Telling you again..you are my most favourite person...so..jaldi wapas aa bey haule!

Thursday, June 11, 2009

The Games I've Played!

1.Mario [on video games]

2.Contra

3.Sega Tennis

4.Mahjong

5.Pac-Man

6.Prince [in B&W]

7.Minesweeper

8.Xonix

9.Pin Ball

10.Dx-Ball

11.EA Sports Cricket World Cup 99

12.Grand Theft Auto

13.Brian Lara Cricket 2000

14.Three Dirty Dwarfs

15.Sega World Soccer

16.Adventures of Aladdin

17. Tarzan

18.EA Sports Cricket 2002

19.Fifa 2002

20.Grand Theft Auto II

21.Need For Speed II: Hot pursuit

22.Test Drive 5

23.Sim City 3000

24.Need For Speed :Underground

25.Need For Speed : Underground II

26.Max Payne

27.Max Payne 2

28. NBA 2003

29.EA Sports Cricket 2005

30.Fifa 2005

31.EA Sports Cricket 2007

32.Fifa 2006

33.NBA 2006

34.Fifa 2007

35.Total Overdoze

36.Triple Play

37.Counter Strike

38.Virtua Tennis 3

39.Brian Lara Cricket 2005

40.Fifa 2008

41.Fifa 2009

42.Proevolution Soccer 2008

43.EA Sports Rugby 2008

44.Freedom Fighters

45.Delta Force 3

46.Age Of Empires

47.Age Of Empires II

48.Age Of Empires III

49.Age Of Mythology

50.WWF

51.WCW Nitro

52.Tony Hawk Pro Skater

53.Dave Mirra Free style Biking

54.Mafia

55.Heretic

56.Resident Evil 3

57.Tomb Raider

58.Street Fighter

59.Tekken

60.Monster Truck Madness

61.Demolition Racer

62.Unreal Tournament

63.Grand Theft Auto: Vice City

64.Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas

65.Zoo Tycoon

66.Roller Coaster Tycoon

67.Road Rash

68.Superbike 2000

69.Motocross Madness

70.Sim City 4

71.Prince Of Persia

72.Call Of Duty

****P.S::: Could Be a lot more but can't think of any right now:D****